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Friday, August 23, 2002
yarg. i fear i may be a collosal failure at tile making. i have no ideas at all. at all. i really guess i just want to make bowls and play dough snakes. im totally devoid of inspiration. but i still like it.
randy came home last night. surprise surprise. he and brian got in some dumb fight. i think brian is going to burn all of randy's clothes or something. its funny tho b/c the whole thing started b/c at the ball game: randy had the announcer announce " happy 35th birthday to brian yates" and he got soooo mad. ( he's 28 and oddly sensitive about his age) dunno. all i care about is getting my cher ticket back. i had nodded off during er and got busted sleeping on randys couch. ( he wouldnt even care about this except i make such a huge honking deal about him sleeping on my couch, so he all has to retaliate) and it was fun to watch the golden girls and designing women together like the old days. tonite were going to this new comedy club. im really excited b/c ive always wanted to go to a comedy club. everyone thinks its so lame but i dont care. anywhere is going to be good if its just new. im so sick of the french bar and hairspray and scandals i could puke.
just went to taco bell. couldnt stand it. ive been trying to go there less but i cant help myself. and its so fast and cheap and.....
im iming brian right now about the ticket!!!
yay!! he says i can have it!!!!
WHOOOOOOO on Wednesday i will be a witness to miss cherilyn herself!!!! "half breed, how i learned to hate the word..."
randy came home last night. surprise surprise. he and brian got in some dumb fight. i think brian is going to burn all of randy's clothes or something. its funny tho b/c the whole thing started b/c at the ball game: randy had the announcer announce " happy 35th birthday to brian yates" and he got soooo mad. ( he's 28 and oddly sensitive about his age) dunno. all i care about is getting my cher ticket back. i had nodded off during er and got busted sleeping on randys couch. ( he wouldnt even care about this except i make such a huge honking deal about him sleeping on my couch, so he all has to retaliate) and it was fun to watch the golden girls and designing women together like the old days. tonite were going to this new comedy club. im really excited b/c ive always wanted to go to a comedy club. everyone thinks its so lame but i dont care. anywhere is going to be good if its just new. im so sick of the french bar and hairspray and scandals i could puke.
just went to taco bell. couldnt stand it. ive been trying to go there less but i cant help myself. and its so fast and cheap and.....
im iming brian right now about the ticket!!!
yay!! he says i can have it!!!!
WHOOOOOOO on Wednesday i will be a witness to miss cherilyn herself!!!! "half breed, how i learned to hate the word..."
Thursday, August 22, 2002
went to a sales lunch just now and my boss suggests getting the tuna/chicken salad sampler. i was all for it. it was okay. the kind of chicken salad with no onions and red grapes. but then my boss is all, see, i like this b/c there it isnt all drowned in mayonaisse. its nice and dry. nice and dry? have you ever heard anything so ridiculous in your life? i have never and will never extol the virtues of a food that does not contain enough mayonaisse.
good news! spoke to paul today and that fucking film ( the documentary ive been working on for a year, you bastards that dont listen to a word i say) will screen oct. 3!! im so ready to be free of it. Itll screen on NC public TV this fall and also Tenn. public TV. Thank god!!
last night had to go to a democratic fundraiser. i didnt mind b/c i love free cheap wine plus any catered snacks. got in an argument with a senator. i was having a lovely debate but my mom politely ushered me away from the good senator. he shouldnt be always hearing polite words. hes my fucking senator. i wanna do a little complaining! i ran out of steam pretty quickly after that b/c my shoes were killing me. also a different senators son was there with his beautiful wife and beautiful two year old son and they were such a beautiful beaming vision of perfect america that it was killing me and i suddenly became sharply aware that somehow i looked drunk and slutty comparatively. even tho i was wearing a conservative suit and had only 2 glasses of wine, the stink of slutty drunk was all around me.
this morning the power went out in the office. was fun chaos. its obviously back on now and the fun has left the building.
last night had to go to a democratic fundraiser. i didnt mind b/c i love free cheap wine plus any catered snacks. got in an argument with a senator. i was having a lovely debate but my mom politely ushered me away from the good senator. he shouldnt be always hearing polite words. hes my fucking senator. i wanna do a little complaining! i ran out of steam pretty quickly after that b/c my shoes were killing me. also a different senators son was there with his beautiful wife and beautiful two year old son and they were such a beautiful beaming vision of perfect america that it was killing me and i suddenly became sharply aware that somehow i looked drunk and slutty comparatively. even tho i was wearing a conservative suit and had only 2 glasses of wine, the stink of slutty drunk was all around me.
this morning the power went out in the office. was fun chaos. its obviously back on now and the fun has left the building.
Wednesday, August 21, 2002
OMG!!! i just got an application/resume from this guy who used to live in Hollywood and worked in TV and his resume lists his TV credits which include everything I could possibly care about. Are you ready for this? Full House, The Jeffersons, Mad About You ( I dont care about this show, but he won an emmy for it) Merv Griffen Show, Facts of Life, You Bet Your Life, Head of the Class, Dance Fever, and the list goes on and on with many more succulent gems like the Black Acheivement Awards.... but heres the kicker.... he did the editing for the first two seasons of .......THE GOLDEN GIRLS!!!! and i just called him to talk about the job ( here ) and asked him all about it and he told me this awesome story about Bea... said she was a real lush at the time and at dinner time they had the catered meal somewhere off set for some reason and they sent golf carts for the stars and he said he'd never forget seeing bea on the back of the cart facing out with a cocktail and when the thing started she fell off and ate shit and the glass broke in her hand and she got all cut and bloody!!!!! he said tho that the minute she was on set it was like she magically turned cold sober. man, im so jacked up on bea arthur dirt i could die!!!!!
OMG!!! Joe CTS just wrote all about me in his blog. Hooray Im a celebrity!!! He even linked me and now maybe a ton of strangers will read my blog. oh the anticipation! Joe, I wish i was in NYC b/c then we could hang out. But as is my usual style i would probably fall in love with you. oh who am i kidding i already half am. just like im in love with scott and this dude daniel that stood me up for NA and this guy Zack that randy used to get it on with. and randy doesnt even appreciate that guy!! oh but i digress.
just scored some advil for aching head and maybe it will kick in soon. am having very real trouble accomplishing work.
am also in the process of trying to talk brian into giving me that ticket back for cher/cyndi lauper. how can i be so stupid as to not see cher just b/c i hate him??? why dont you people stop me from cutting off my nose more often!?!?!
just scored some advil for aching head and maybe it will kick in soon. am having very real trouble accomplishing work.
am also in the process of trying to talk brian into giving me that ticket back for cher/cyndi lauper. how can i be so stupid as to not see cher just b/c i hate him??? why dont you people stop me from cutting off my nose more often!?!?!
head is pounding. remind me not to go to scabby pool bars with jill named 'the corner pocket' anymore. jill got this membership there and thinks its so great b/c the place is so empty and terrible. she's of course right, but still. also remind me not to take whatever pills that some wierd gross fat redneck dude offers me next time. esp. after ive already taken some of this friend of jills named will's pain medication. how is it that i cant take care of myself like normal, decent people? I dont even know what normal decent people do... if you know please give insight. later that night forced everyone to dance party to Bad record and Faith record. was great fun.
on excellent note: jill gave me 69 love songs for my b-day. this is of course belated as hell but i am super excited anyway.
must get to studio to work on my tiles. was given homework assignment for class. have not done it and class is tommorow. as it is clay which must set up, cannot procrasitinate. even now im bad at getting my homework done. hm.
on excellent note: jill gave me 69 love songs for my b-day. this is of course belated as hell but i am super excited anyway.
must get to studio to work on my tiles. was given homework assignment for class. have not done it and class is tommorow. as it is clay which must set up, cannot procrasitinate. even now im bad at getting my homework done. hm.
Monday, August 19, 2002
this just in! some dumb theatre here is doing Hedwig and the Angry Inch! I am so excited i could puke!!! now must figure out which boyfriend to force to go with me.
Oh!! and how could I forget... Joe CTS didnt respond directly to me... but wrote this in his blog:
So, first thing Monday morning, I will have it on my page. Thank you to my dear friend Jami, who convinced me of such a thing.
This girl intrigues me. She wrote an entry the other day, that included the word "fag" and I just felt compelled to comment on the entry, letting her know that I was uncomfortable with her use of it. In no way should she change for me. It just surprised me that people are still using that word in the conotation that she used it in. I hope that what I wrote didn't offend her and scare her off. A word is a word is a word. Especially when it is someone I don't know.
Unfortunatly, I happen to be a "fag", so it just zinged me when I read what she wrote.
Jami...if you are reading this...sorry if I made you feel bad. ;)
Im so happy he finally wrote something! I wrote him a frantic "please write me back" email and got nothing. and i think its funny he thinks he offended me! sheesh! i cant wait til he gets those comments up.
also his blog linked to this blog and its good.
So, first thing Monday morning, I will have it on my page. Thank you to my dear friend Jami, who convinced me of such a thing.
This girl intrigues me. She wrote an entry the other day, that included the word "fag" and I just felt compelled to comment on the entry, letting her know that I was uncomfortable with her use of it. In no way should she change for me. It just surprised me that people are still using that word in the conotation that she used it in. I hope that what I wrote didn't offend her and scare her off. A word is a word is a word. Especially when it is someone I don't know.
Unfortunatly, I happen to be a "fag", so it just zinged me when I read what she wrote.
Jami...if you are reading this...sorry if I made you feel bad. ;)
Im so happy he finally wrote something! I wrote him a frantic "please write me back" email and got nothing. and i think its funny he thinks he offended me! sheesh! i cant wait til he gets those comments up.
also his blog linked to this blog and its good.
weekends over. am glad and sad. fri night i did an excellent job of shaming myself as usual. still cant find my camera. went to g-bar with good deal of cleavage. only good thing about getting so fat is that I grew boobs. was excellent fun. forced my nieghbor to drive me home as I was not able and was stuck with car. Wasted too much money. at one point I got really sad b/c that song cuckoo came into my head and i couldnt quit thinking about forcing jeremy to sing that 300 times in greensboro and i was so wishing he was there to sing it some more. then the bartender brought my fresh beer and i forgot all about it. Came back, harrassed several different neighbours for awhile.
went to bed at 6:30... had to help adrienne at the arts council at 8:00. Was tired and red eyed
At noon drove to lake. Spent whole day sucking down cokes and bagel bites and trying to seem interesting when my aunt and uncle spoke to me over the din that was my four year old cousin. Saw oceans 11 finally. I was so excited about brad pitt and matt damon being in one movie but Matt Damon for once wasnt doing it for me. I mean, he's no edward norton. slept 13 hours.
next day felt fine and spent whole day in gross, low muddy, lake with small cousin and visiting child. Got bbq from Judges and chicken fingers. spent night briefly wishing Jill wasnt in baltimore and then getting over it b/c of sunday night line up.
went to bed at 6:30... had to help adrienne at the arts council at 8:00. Was tired and red eyed
At noon drove to lake. Spent whole day sucking down cokes and bagel bites and trying to seem interesting when my aunt and uncle spoke to me over the din that was my four year old cousin. Saw oceans 11 finally. I was so excited about brad pitt and matt damon being in one movie but Matt Damon for once wasnt doing it for me. I mean, he's no edward norton. slept 13 hours.
next day felt fine and spent whole day in gross, low muddy, lake with small cousin and visiting child. Got bbq from Judges and chicken fingers. spent night briefly wishing Jill wasnt in baltimore and then getting over it b/c of sunday night line up.
